Honestly, I started the Take Shape for Life program because
I wanted to be the “Hot Mom”. In
some ways, I suppose I’m still that insecure high-school sophomore,( or junior,
or senior) :) girl still trying to figure out me and my life purpose. So I searched and watched tutorials and
paid a lot of money to figure a few things out. I still have a lot to figure out and many of these thoughts
have only occurred to me as I type this post. I’ve colored my hair for almost 15 years, I’ve gotten a
spray tan, I recently got acrylic nails and embarked on a very expensive
make-up journey, all in the pursuit to feel good about my appearance and
ultimately, myself. Of course I’m
not saying that doing any, or all, of these things is bad, but I had all the
wrong reasons. I still thought my
worth lied in how I look, and trying desperately to not look like me. Do I still love make-up? You bet. Will I still get mani/pedis? Of course! However, as I have lost the weight I’m
finding that I feel better. I’m
healthier, my body gets so much more of the nutrients it needs and not all the
sugar and emptiness I was feeding myself before. And with that feeling better,
I like me. I have learned to
embrace so many of the aspects that I loathed before. I no longer have
“man-hands”, I just have “hands” and I’m so grateful for them. I no longer dread my roots growing out, because
I’m going back to my own hair color. I even went out in public in flip-flops without a
pedicure!! So, why lose weight? To
look great in a white bikini (my ultimate swim-suit dream)? No. To give my body a fighting chance at
allowing me to enjoy me and the life that I am meant to live without always yearning
to live the life of another? Yes!
Enjoying Tara,
Tara